Smiling reduces stress

Smiling keeps you healthy

“happy” people walk around with masks on

Smiling but

Smiling

isn’t so easy when 

there are

so

many things that can make you frown

I floated atop the currents

but never got wet

I only submerged deeper in love

which covered me whole

and made me shiver and shake

I was afraid, not of the blue or the vast emptiness

and no one thought to rescue me

I only capsized into you

I am like you

Although you cannot see it

Your funny bone shows like mine

Your heart is smeared on the bottom of your shoe

We are too plain to draw attention

You and I, yet there are some

Who dare to link to us

With our crooked smiles and ways

Are we so small?

So small that we’re invisible to the naked eye

Microscopes, we have in common

And speeches about useless topics

Also an arrangement

So uncomfortable, brought us near

You would have never imagined

I was there, although you had questions

And I, responses, to them all

But the time proved false

And the microscopes made you real

And me not as much

And I began to hate you

And your funny bone

And your crooked smile

And our arrangement

It all went awry

And my jokes went amiss

And our lips never parted

Never did they kiss

But you were seen one day

By a girl, less than I

Her complexion brought your near

Not her popularity

So my attempts went unnoticed

And my smile disappeared

Only to you, it seemed

Perhaps you never knew I was there 

i just can’t get the sadness to go away 

when I laugh, it creeps up in my stomach 

when I smile, it appears behind my teeth 

when I speak. it shows itself as the words come out 

they jumble up and come out as “I don’t know” or “mhmm” or “I am happy”

and they all just shake it off 

they wouldn’t believe that a girl like me…

the blank stare that I wear 

is a sign 

but you don’t obey it 

when I go, put flowers over my eyes and on my lips 

make me pretty 

so the world will see

that I was beautiful 

just more so, on the other side 

and that the flowers subsided the sadness 

the sadness that crept up when I least expected it 

and needed it the least